I Got Addicted to Heroin in Front of 1.5 Million YouTube Subscribers

  • Taylor Nicole Dean is queen of PetTube, a FRclip niche for bloggers with dozens of pets. But after disappearing for a few months, she finally came back with a video explaining how she had been addicted to heroin. In this episode of MY LIFE ONLINE, we track Taylor’s meteoric rise to celebrity and how addiction took over her life.
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Commentaires • 80

  • HokiePitcher22
    HokiePitcher22 Il y a 29 minutes

    That house HAS to smell like shit...

  • Elizabeth Padilla
    Elizabeth Padilla Il y a 39 minutes

    I used to watch her but I stopped because there was a lot of discourse around her and I didn’t want to have to take a stance, I had no idea any of this had happened

  • michalokable
    michalokable Il y a 2 heures

    Anything to be liked .... lmao

  • Deej Price
    Deej Price Il y a 2 heures

    Damn Johnny okie doked her ass.. I'm a recovering addict myself. Even though I have never got anyone addicted, but i have seen my friends get a girl with a job, some money, a car, etc. And heroin is a secret, then they talk the girl into "trying it once". Then the girl supports both of their dope habit. So sad

  • Philip Tooley
    Philip Tooley Il y a 2 heures

    Youre a loser. I was on fentanyl for 2 weeks and i detoxed with one patch left that i didnt take cause im not a little bitch afraid of pain.

  • lewis lighting777
    lewis lighting777 Il y a 2 heures

    Hey thats my girl

  • Murat Ölmez
    Murat Ölmez Il y a 4 heures

    I used every drugs except heroin since i was 11 still using i will never try heroin because i see people who use its takes control from you, first times its your bitch but after that you are its bitch. Its easy if you can handle to quit crack and meth but heroin is something worse

  • N H
    N H Il y a 5 heures

    So happy she found the strength to quit... She's far too beautiful

  • t3rror5am
    t3rror5am Il y a 5 heures +1

    I feel for her, I almost let an ex give me crack just because I wanted to spend that time with him. Its a horrible position to be in and to give to someone. I wish them both the best luck.

  • Dodomba
    Dodomba Il y a 7 heures

    dont do the drugs the doctor sells

  • Zasha Lugo
    Zasha Lugo Il y a 7 heures

    Effing online BULLIES. People wake up and realize that your not perfect and/or a saint. We have opinions but when its negative you shouldn't say it at all. Effing assholes. Shes human for eff sake.

  • Kenneth Dunklin
    Kenneth Dunklin Il y a 7 heures

    I'm really glad you're better and doing okay. Hope your still single and that's just me being selfish :-)

    KHESI FX Il y a 8 heures

    Can a porn addict also comment

  • Amanda Thornton
    Amanda Thornton Il y a 9 heures

    Really hard not to hate on that guy. 💔 addiction SUCKS!

  • Fa397bio
    Fa397bio Il y a 9 heures

    Why does the title sound like another video from GrayStillPlays?

  • Rebecca A
    Rebecca A Il y a 9 heures

    Go to the 8:00 min mark where she takes it with her boyfriend

  • Lee's Corner
    Lee's Corner Il y a 10 heures

    After a surgery I started taking Oxys high dosed ibruprophen and tylenol and after 30 days I started getting addicted. Even though I'm grown my mother took it from me and refused to give it back. I was pissed but I'm glad she did that

  • Shocker 3171
    Shocker 3171 Il y a 11 heures

    go on girl smash it

  • Ty Bamlin
    Ty Bamlin Il y a 11 heures

    I mean she choose to be him. He’s a known asshole and drug abuser. Has been known for that for a long time. I feel like she knew what she was getting into.....

  • Noah Laufer
    Noah Laufer Il y a 11 heures

    From the title, I thought she shot up in a video

  • Daniela Velandia
    Daniela Velandia Il y a 13 heures

    Living in Columbia right now talking off my wife’s account because of all the stupid problems I got in the United States with Gangs and drugs I start doing coke when I was about 13 years old I end up doing crack and stronger drugs by time I was 16 just wanted something stronger ended up in Columbia doing something stronger the crack is almost pure Coke and you have to smoke it is done with human bones I’m not even joking called basuco Been fighting with alcoholism and drug addiction most of my life and I feel bad for her and for anybody who has to deal with this

  • kimMY nyC
    kimMY nyC Il y a 13 heures

    i have 6 years off of that junk & life is beautiful....we'll aside from the pandemic.

  • lilpeep_ shawty
    lilpeep_ shawty Il y a 15 heures

    So fuck it let’s smoke pot, snort coke, shoot up and fucc

  • lilpeep_ shawty
    lilpeep_ shawty Il y a 15 heures

    What’s wrong with drug abuse? As long as it makes u HAPPY, and u can afford it.

  • lilpeep_ shawty
    lilpeep_ shawty Il y a 15 heures

    Who cares?

  • Frecklez Love
    Frecklez Love Il y a 16 heures

    Lets do iy together means i know if i can get you high youll become addicted and ill get you to pay for my high for now on...typical junkie thoughts.. sad thing is it worx.

  • Total Sweet
    Total Sweet Il y a 17 heures

    I have same black n white cat just one ☝️ but animal hording is addicting trait and trust me men to accept that r gunna b bizarre

  • Total Sweet
    Total Sweet Il y a 17 heures

    Hoarding animals just wasn’t enough

  • klasified1
    klasified1 Il y a 19 heures

    If no one is gunna say it i will try KRATOM!!! It helps soooo MUCH with kicking dope by like a long shot could not say this in a more urgency manner please if you are trying to quit buy a kilo of kratom for like 70$ off online or buy some at a head shop(pricey) but please try it before ur relapse it definitely a worth a try

  • Bayoubabe66
    Bayoubabe66 Il y a 20 heures

    Wherever you go, there you are. Stay strong and beautiful♥️✌️💜

  • /╲/\╭( ͡° ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ͡°)╮/\╱\

    lol that dude was a lil peep clone holy shit

  • Tasha Hocking
    Tasha Hocking Il y a 21 heure

    Have you ever wondered if you struggle with borderline personality disorder? I do, and you and I have a lot in common. I've learned a lot and transcended a lot by educating and understanding myself. I hope you continue to get support and go to counseling. You need to put in at least a few years of steady work and support. I get your struggles and want you to be encouraged! This is a life long job, even without the drug.

  • Evelardo Gastelum Jr
    Evelardo Gastelum Jr Il y a 22 heures

    She seems way better off drugs

  • Jason Wacome
    Jason Wacome Il y a jour

    Yeah so you on Suboxone

  • Jason Wacome
    Jason Wacome Il y a jour

    I loved vice until I seen this shit.......I would bet my yearly salary that you fucks are on board for Joe Biden

  • Jason Wacome
    Jason Wacome Il y a jour

    Man....wish I could find me a disorder....with the right money and social acceptance....I bet I could

  • Jason Wacome
    Jason Wacome Il y a jour

    Annnnnd... yeah...it's nothing new to you but sorry

  • seleena b
    seleena b Il y a jour

    OMG 😭

  • Ross Turpin
    Ross Turpin Il y a jour

    Why did I think this was about some chick taking heroin for the first time on a livestream?!

  • wolfslullaby
    wolfslullaby Il y a jour

    It seems like she's changed, I hope she takes better care of her animals and herself now.

  • Carriefish
    Carriefish Il y a jour +1

    Addiction is not an illness like depression or anxiety is but it is also not a lack of willpower. It is now understood to be a chronic disease; like how diabetes comprises the pancreas, addiction compromises the brain. No one starts out wanting to become an addict, and some people are genetically more susceptible to becoming one than others. However, the individual’s behaviour is partly to blame when it comes to how much or little they reinforce the habit (like with self-induced obesity where there were no underlying health conditions).
    When you take drugs, it floods your brains reward centre with dopamine, which not only gives you a deep sense of satisfaction and pleasure, but also changes your brain’s system of reward-related learning and memory. So over time, it links the use of the psychoactive drugs when addicted the same way it links eating when hungry.
    After consistent use, the brain starts to adapt and makes it so dopamine has less of an impact on the brain’s reward system. This makes the drug less pleasurable.
    “People who develop an addiction typically find that, in time, the desired substance no longer gives them as much pleasure. They have to take more of it to obtain the same dopamine "high" because their brains have adapted - an effect known as tolerance.
    At this point, compulsion takes over. The pleasure associated with an addictive drug or behavior subsides - and yet the memory of the desired effect and the need to recreate it (the wanting) persists. It's as though the normal machinery of motivation is no longer functioning.
    The learning process mentioned earlier also comes into play. The hippocampus and the amygdala store information about environmental cues associated with the desired substance, so that it can be located again. These memories help create a conditioned response - intense craving - whenever the person encounters those environmental cues.”

  • Grounded Human
    Grounded Human Il y a jour


  • Sham Rock
    Sham Rock Il y a jour +1

    I thought it was Blair white in the thumbnail

  • Sean Mcbrearty
    Sean Mcbrearty Il y a jour

    Cut to the 7 minute mark if you want to hear about the drugs.

  • Sean Mcbrearty
    Sean Mcbrearty Il y a jour +1

    As we see in the “Tiger King” 99% of animal collectors do it for the attention not the animals. You Never saw Jack Hannah or Steve Irwin showing off their personal exotic animal collections.

    • W.B S.
      W.B S. Il y a jour

      It took you some Netflix documentary to tell you that??

  • Cody Kilgore
    Cody Kilgore Il y a jour

    Okay, that was a cool title transition.

  • stichting yimak
    stichting yimak Il y a jour

    Videos of people talkin about other people.... glad theres no rocket launchers around me rn

  • crematory candy
    crematory candy Il y a jour

    So that's what happened to Jonny Craig

  • Nicola Green
    Nicola Green Il y a jour

    When I was in college, my ex worked super hard to get me addicted to opiates. It helps them control you and not be alone in it. Jonny sounds like he was totally cool with dragging her down with him at the very least... there are probably more f*cked up stories that she didn’t share that didn’t make it in this video so anyone judging omg please miss me with that bs. Jonny is famous for being a horrible person and all DGD stans know this is all true. Even his own fans know he’s terrible. DGD was/kinda still is my favorite band and I have met Jonny and he is... a total fucking narcissistic jerk. None of this is surprising. I have a chronic illness and love animals too Jesus I kinda wish I could become this girls best friend. I’m so glad she’s away from him now! Must suck to have your favorite band ruined for you bc you date the singer and he ends up being... well, garbage. Listening to their music is about to be even weirder for me than it already was

    • W.B S.
      W.B S. Il y a jour

      What's worse is Jonny knew Matt, their drummer, was struggling himself with his own issues and he had no disregard for any of that

  • MegaRoo
    MegaRoo Il y a jour +2

    Yeah this is all well and good, but it's interesting to watch the several videos out there on FRclip that take an accounting of how many animals have died under her care.

  • Lera Lit
    Lera Lit Il y a jour +1

    she looks almost identical as one of Lil Peep's gfs, Layla I believe

  • Lytra
    Lytra Il y a jour +4

    She literally abused her pets but okay

    • Lytra
      Lytra Il y a 11 heures

      Alyssa Brown she boarded animals, kept them in wardrobes with no natural light, and just genuinely didn’t look after them. I know what I’m talking about and I know how drug addiction works and it doesn’t make you hoard animals.

    • Bitch Lasagna
      Bitch Lasagna Il y a 11 heures

      @Alyssa Brown Addiction is an illness and addicts need compassion TO AN EXTENT. I'm not saying I don't feel for this girl but being an addict doesn't excuse all the terrible things you've done and at the end of the day she was not forced into this life. She was not handed into this life. She was raised well and knew what she was doing when she took cocaine, she knew what she was doing when she started popping pills and she knew what she was doing when she took heroin. I understand that addiction is extremely hard to get out of and I understand that addict her would do some fuck shit that sober her never would. But sober her is the one who created addict her, nobody else did which is unfortunately not a lot of peoples stories. I am much more compassionate to the people who were thrown into that life over the people who were handed a nice life and took drugs even though they knew about how addictive they are. She chose to become an addict which means the neglect of her animals is completely on her. She also could've rehomed them. Keeping them was selfish. Keeping them was another form of trying to convince herself that things were fine and normal.

    • Alyssa Brown
      Alyssa Brown Il y a 20 heures +2

      Lytra I don’t think you understand the extent of addiction. She can’t even care for herself yet. She never intended to neglect them. It isn’t something she’s denying though either she is just trying to redeem her esteem as a result of it. So, don’t condescend someone it’s just blatantly wrong dude.

  • Mike Stein
    Mike Stein Il y a jour

    People must be so starved for attention her mom must be so proud so privileged and pretty people would kill to have the opportunities she’s probably had and yet she’s willing to throw it all away for likes on a web site so spoiled so selflsh and foolish

  • John long
    John long Il y a jour

    Wow she is pretty.

  • shannon briggs
    shannon briggs Il y a jour

    Your face, skin and body definitely allow for more tattoos, they would suit you a lot. Well done on beating your addiction so far, good luck with every new day.

  • Pacman's Little bitch
    Pacman's Little bitch Il y a jour +1

    The fact that I used to subscribe this girl.. oh my.. why do I feel so bad for not knowing that this happened to her.

  • Peter Mineo
    Peter Mineo Il y a jour

    I have eds too it’s cool to see other ppl have it too

  • Well
    Well Il y a jour

    Please spread awareness. Right now dogs are being killed in China horrific deaths, due to people thinking they are spreading the Coronavirus. This is not true. For consumption in CERTAIN areas, dogs are tortured alive by being blowtorched, skinned, and boiled. IN THE THOUSANDS!! Each year..... Please donate to an organization. They urgently need supplies and donations to help rescue more dogs. Also to support dogs they are caring for. Right now China is discussing banning the, consumption of dog meat, please support it

    • W.B S.
      W.B S. Il y a jour

      Keep that same energy for bat's losing their home to hot weather, fires, and people killing them because of the Corona virus. But nooo y'all only care about the cute animals

  • Terrell Ford
    Terrell Ford Il y a jour

    Someone send me that beat at the beginning of the video 😭!

  • Give It Everything
    Give It Everything Il y a jour

    Watching this video high af! But this is the last night. Maybe

  • miguel corona
    miguel corona Il y a jour +2

    Follower Taylor since before she started seeing JC and got addicted. She was still small enough that we interacted somewhat often. Warned her of the risk of being with someone like him and wrote me off, Great girl, just sad to see its all still being used to seek fame..

  • Keely Skidds
    Keely Skidds Il y a jour

    Love her from the beginning, will continue to love her!

  • None of Your business
    None of Your business Il y a jour

    Aw she lost her big house. Sucks

  • None of Your business
    None of Your business Il y a jour

    This bitch cares WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH about what people think about he’ll

  • ogsmoke 420
    ogsmoke 420 Il y a jour

    i knew she was a crack head

  • Jeremiah Schumacher
    Jeremiah Schumacher Il y a jour

    It takes a lot of effort to go to rehab, stick with it, and win against the addiction. Kudos to her.

  • mgk0586
    mgk0586 Il y a jour

    Hmm my fiancé left me around that time bc I was using. Wonder if that’s who she was talking about. Idk I thought she only watched makeup tutorials on FRclip. Maybe I was wrong

  • Joshua Valdez
    Joshua Valdez Il y a jour

    Baby girl you beautiful and I know what it is strong with a heroin addiction I do and I'm bless you God-bless is you being strong and pulling through stay strong don't Ever tell you any different you're beautiful strong woman and you can do this to God is the Glory

  • Austin Schmidt
    Austin Schmidt Il y a 2 jours

    Also if your a youtuber do heroin and you gets mad subs?!?!

  • Selene
    Selene Il y a 2 jours

    Is it me or does her voice sound different?
    Like, did she acquire a slight lisp?
    Is that even possible?

  • Sosuke
    Sosuke Il y a 2 jours

    What thots do for attention

  • Juan Tutrifor
    Juan Tutrifor Il y a 2 jours

    It seems fun but remember that heroin is a gateway drug.

  • Melinda Lee
    Melinda Lee Il y a 2 jours

    The girl on the echelon fit ads spreading peanut butter jelly annoys the everliving crap out of me.

  • CR CR
    CR CR Il y a 2 jours +1


  • Well Ok
    Well Ok Il y a 2 jours

    Stay strong. 🤘 I was a heroin addict for 8 years. I grew up with that music. I felt this. Anybody is capable of getting out of that dark non-exsistense. 🖤

  • Maria Jose Collazos
    Maria Jose Collazos Il y a 2 jours

    once i saw this was about jonny craig i was like o....yep....

  • Elizabeth Murphy
    Elizabeth Murphy Il y a 2 jours

    He’s a covert narcissist that only loves and forever will love his only love heroin , I did 27 years I got my shit right for our daughters he honest to god doesn’t give a shit they lie and lie and they do far far more than heroin, I was 17 when I used heroin real heroin I’m 43 it’s okay addicts protect their addiction at all costs

  • David S Cameron
    David S Cameron Il y a 2 jours +1

    I'm not sure about this, I do hope folks witness the misery, melancholy and the sparkle this beautiful lady has lost because there's no pluses in skag.

  • Mac Figgs
    Mac Figgs Il y a 2 jours

    Why do hot chicks always date scum bags?

  • Luke Pardell
    Luke Pardell Il y a 2 jours

    Good luck to this lady, just a life experience is all. Anyone who posts anything negative or poisonous online is a fucking loser.